01 Sep Suicide, Bullying, and Depression
I have been changed ever since Verge happened. Before Verge I didn’t know that God loves me, even though I did everything I was supposed to. The realization just wasn’t there. Four months before I nearly committed suicide. The anxiety was getting to me and I didn’t have anyone to rely on. I’ve been bullied a lot, both virtually and in real life. I have been scarred both internally and externally. Trust me, I know how it feels to be an outcast; like no one cares for you. When Verge happened I didn’t really expect that much, but in those five precious days I felt different. I felt new. I felt the love of God. I have never ever felt that before.
Then came the baptism. After that I knew that I had committed myself to the Lord. I am his warrior, I am his precious daughter, and there is no one else like me! I learned that there is a path set down for me and that God has made it perfect. I didn’t have to become someone else for the world. I just have to be myself. There will always be people who hate you but just stay strong and say “You may be bigger, but I am stronger than you in my soul.”
At Verge I learned that God loves me no matter what I do. He will always feel that way. He is consistent in everything. Verge is the place where I found myself. Verge is the place that I found God. I am still broken on the inside, but I will heal though with God’s grace and love for me. I now know that He is always there. I am never going to be alone ever again because He is there right beside me. I am his precious daughter. There is no one like me.